Are You Even Listening, God?

 

Are You Even Listening, God?

Have you asked this question? Have you been in that place of desperation where you are crying out to God for guidance, a sign, a change or simply an answer?

My guess is you have.

This summer has been just that for my husband and I.  We have had some life changing circumstances face us and they are completely outside of our control.  In the beginning ,my faith was strong. I came to God fully believing that He had a plan for us and that His plan would fall right into place very quickly.

Unfortunalty, as time has gone on, discouragement sets in and I am caught between my faith and the lie of the enemy telling me that He isn’t even hearing my pleas for help.

I have sat beside my bed praising His name for the blessings we do have and I have fallen to my knees, face to the ground crying and begging for simply one sign that He is listening.

I AM WEAK!

I have never felt more weak in my life. At times, in this weakness I have wanted to give up and fall into the pit of selfish withdrawal from my family, my friends and my God. In this weakness I find the mornings hard to start and the evenings almost unbearable to end because once again, there is not change, no answer and I am still in a place of desperate vulnerability.

There is something so beautiful about my weakness though that I am promised.

Each time he said, My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

 2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT)

His power works best in my weakness! In another version, the translation states “My power is PERFECT in weakness” Really?!? That sheds a whole new light on the distress that I am feeling.

Paul, the writer in this chapter goes on to say this;

That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

For when I am weak, then I am strong! How can that even be? It is because Christ’s power works best when we are weak. I can find comfort in the fact that at my most desperate time in life, He is able to be my strength and His power is able to shine even brighter.

I find peace in knowing my weakness is not the end of my situation but what about the answer? Still, I find myself asking, “Are you even hearing me God?” My circumstances are getting worse and yet, I am still here on my knees begging Him to change them and give me answers.

Currently I am involved in a ladies Bible study at our church and ironically it is addressing the very topic of prayer.  In this study, I have been reminded that sometimes our prayers are wrong.  Let me go into this a  little more. Sometimes we are praying the wrong prayers, maybe they are in the wrong time and many times we pray them with the wrong heart.

In our desperate calling out to God, we have to ask Him is my request going against your will, is this maybe your will but not your timing or is my heart hindered by a sin that needs to be confessed before you.

Maybe you are in the place I am in though and you know this is His will, the timing is very serious for the provision of your family and you have confessed all sin the Lord has brought to your heart…STILL NOTHING HAS CHANGED.

Nothing else matters at this point.  You are so desperate. You are continually going to God and begging for His power to intervene. If you are there, here is my humble advice. DONT GIVE UP.

There is a parable Jesus told about a widow in Luke 18:1-8. This widow went before the Judge begging for him to give her justice.  She went day and night, over and over, pleading her case. This was what Jesus said in response;

Then the Lord said, Learn a lesson from this unjust judge. Even he rendered a just decision in the end. So don’t you think God will surely give justice to his chosen people who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will grant justice to them quickly! But when the Son of Man returns, how many will he find on the earth who have faith?’

Another one, one of my favorites on this topic is the parable of the friend at night or the persistant friend.  Jesus taught about a man who knocked on his friends door needing bread.  The friend got mad and told him to stop bothering him but the man was persistant…he was in NEED! The friend whos door was being knocked on gave in to the persistence and did what his friend asked finally.  Jesus said this in the end;

And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.”

 Through these verses, God’s promises, I can’t help but believe that He is hearing me and though it seems right now, in this very moment that the answers will never come, His word says otherwise.

In the many years I have been God’s child, looking back, He has never not provided for me. There has never been a time when He I have not seen His perfect will and timing after the storm has passed. Through it all, this is my testimony, this is my story!

Right now, as I write this, I don’t have an answer, I don’t know what tomorrow will hold but I do know the promises I have been given and I choose to write them, sing them, memorize them and scream them in prayer at times in order to activate my faith and my belief.

My God is faithful!

[ * Here are some other verses that I have been clinging to during this time that I hope you find encouraging also: Ps. 42:11,  Is. 41:10, 2 Cor. 4:8-9, 2 Cor. 5:7, I Peter 1:6-7.  If there is a scripture that you are finding comforting right now, please share!!]

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