Refreshed in Spirit

REFRESHED IN SPIRIT

Some nights, probably more than I would care to admit, I am exhausted & discouraged. I may not have gotten anything done that I wanted to and yet I feel the pressure to run myself ragged in order to accomplish more. My spirit is depleted, not refreshed.

O Lord, in the morning you hear my voice; in the morning I prepare a sacrifice for you and watch.” — Psalm 5:3

As a mom, I always have a list of things to get done. Most evenings I am tired and my back hurts. I just want to sit down and rest for the first time all day. However, sometimes I have a list that gets longer each hour at times. My husband, being the loving man that he is, often asks how I’m doing as he walks in from work.

Many times my response is to be exasperated and re-tell the horrors of the day, to re-hash all the ways the kids disobeyed and got disciplined. To tell him of my throbbing headache or backache and just that I’m glad he’s there to help now. Glad in the “I now have reinforcements” kind of way, not a simple “I’ve missed you and just have joy that you’re home” kind of way.

Then he, in his usual gracious and servant-hearted self, tends to step in and say, “What can I help you with?”

He then moves to either intercept kids so I can have some quiet or he seeks to know the next steps in getting dinner on the table and helps me accomplish them. He’s wonderful in that way.

It’s at that point that I’m nudged by the Spirit in my heart posture toward him: my complaining about the day, or all that I’ve done and that I’ve got so much more to do, or simply that I really want to sit down and do nothing for the rest of the night.

What I really need is to repent of this sin, to seek the Lord in these hard parts and see that I don’t need to complete everything off my list in order to prove myself to be a good mom or wife.  I need to know my worth and identity in Christ and ensure that I’m spending my time with Him, getting refreshed through His Word.

Even youths shall faint and be weary,

    and young men shall fall exhausted;

but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;

    they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

    they shall walk and not faint.” — Isaiah 40:30-31

God, in His awesome faithfulness, longs for us to come to Him when we are weary. He wants to rejuvenate our souls and re-focus our hearts and minds on Him. He wants to breathe life into our perception of performance – the to-do lists and pressures which often lead to being overwhelmed and discouraged. God promises to lift us up, fill us up and sustain us with life-giving bread.  

Through this reminder from the Spirit, I am often brought to repentance – apologizing to my husband for my speech toward him and apologizing to my kids for my frustration in the child-like behavior from children. My husband’s very presence and care reminds me that I am not alone in this endeavor of parenting and homemaking. I am not on my own. While I do have him to help, more importantly I have God to help me.

fear not, for I am with you;

    be not dismayed, for I am your God;

I will strengthen you, I will help you,

    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” — Isaiah 41:10

Being a mom brings out my worst at times. It’s certainly a sanctifying phase in life but I’m ever grateful for the preciousness that God Spirit brings to my soul through conviction. I’m grateful for the countless opportunities I have to go to God, desperate for refreshment from the well of living water. I’m grateful that He’s a God who meets me where I’m at and cares enough for me to press me toward holiness.

Holly from The Brown Tribe

Holly currently lives in Nebraska with her amazing & godly husband, sweet & smart 4-year old daughter & joyful 2 year old son. She is a stay-at-home mom who serves with her local MOPS group, and on her church’s Mission Leadership Team for missionary support. She writes at The Brown Tribe for the purpose of discipling and encouraging women and mothers. She is also a contributor for Missional Call. In her spare time she enjoys coffee, photography, exploring the culinary craft, helping combat human trafficking through awareness and is currently writing her first book. You can follow along with Holly on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, google +,  and Instagram.

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